Memories By Inner Light

That it had been TWO DAYS since I last posted (erm, going off of what i saw YESTERDAY meaning Wednesday)....wtf???? when did monday and tuesday happen?!?!?!?! and why wasn't I informed!?!?!?!...this is what i get for not sleeping and working in a place that forces me to look at a screen and NOWHERE ELSE!!! for 8 hours.....holy guacamole....and it's not like i don't get out...I've been out...3 outta the 4 days this week..and i'm STILL GOING OUT.....i must be oblivious...or uber busy...and i'd like to think it was a combination of the two.

P.S. Al finally got his truck...aka...Therese doesn't have to do all the driving (I really will miss it...*sniffles*) HOWEVER this also means that, Al can pick me up for dates...whihc makes me feel all girly and cute inside....*sees flowers and rainbows everywhere* *happy music*

and then I'm reminded that we're not GOING anywhere on a trip really *Rainbows flicker out abruptly...flowers wilt and die...* *happy music squeals to a painfully slow halt*....girly feeling gone....still wants ibuprofen.....REALITY STRIKES....Reality is definitely OVERRATED....yearns for just a leetle rainbow....


I'm really going to bed this time, I'm getting sleep tonite!!!!

*end of random noticing* (god i sound like professor jones..."Tell me your noticings! While i drink this Alcoholic (erm..uh....) NON-Alcoholic tea!" <- drunk professors very entertaining....

    Oh my god. My professor....is insane.....and...extremely jaded. -_____-.....so so so freakishly.....*mouth's open* i have no idea what word to use to describe this man's psychology....twisted...with a touch of sexual harassment....i think that's apt.

He just said something that I can't repeat, mostly bc i'm just trying to forget about it as quickly as possible.

and today as the saga of the permanent marker. Actually, this saga started *unbeknownst* to us, on Friday in class. Prof. T, wrote all over half of the board with a PERMANENT marker.  SO we get back to class today and ALL of our notes from Friday are STILL on the board. So we come in and i overhear one of the other students was talking about how he had a class in here and his professor was flipping out about the notes being in permanent marker.

So when Prof. T. comes in he's delighted that the notes are still there....until he tries to erase it.....then we tel him about the permanent marker and he just kinda shrugs it off and tries to place the blame on "modern technology"...i.e. a dry erase board and marker.....-___-...
so Then! he goes to write on the board with the SAME marker he was using on Friday *facepalm*...so a brave soul speaks up and tells him...and then he finally finds an actual dry erase marker and the class proceeds on as normally as possible...barring that CRAZY comment he made before....O.O....he's crazy! that's what it is! hahaha

O well!

Note to self:

FILL YOUR TANK ON THE WAY HOME OR YOUR CAR WILL STOP WORKING!!!!!

okay,, hopefully it'll sink in this time hahaha.

Tonight, i'm SUPPOSED to have a walk with al, but i'm not really gonna hold my breath, we haven't had one in two weeks, and he's been really busy lately. So...it won't surprise me if we can't today. I was a little dissapointed the last two weeks, but i'm just learning to step back and make myself scarce when he needs time. So yesterday, i wasn't upset at all. I missed him, but i wasn't upset....

It's just for the next two years. Then stuff should relax a bit *hopefully* i don't expect it to go back to the way it used to be...but i expect a maturer romantic sensibility. Not that we'll be less romantic...hopefully we'll be more so. Just something a little more grown up..more focused on the long term goals. It wll be great! Once we get there ^_^. I can wait as long as he needs me to.

*sigh* i should really pay more attention haha...so i'm gonna go.

laterz!
~T

boy o boy was today boring. Apart from a new book idea, nothing much happened.  I got up...i sat...and sat...and sat....O and then i stood up and then....i sat....AND SAT!

I took a shower and did some excercises, julian came home from school and i took him to gamestop, not much else has really been going on...i can't wait for break next week! I'm already in the "break" mindset...all i need is the actual break.

something of a major/minor concern....why am i so dizzy i can barely stand?hmm...maybe i'd like to figure that out b4 i drive tomorrow.

ANYWAYS!

i'm feeling kinda tired...it's the bored tired you get when you don't have enough to do during the day...*sigh*...maybe some writing would help.....hmmmm i think i'll do that.

Toodles!

~T.

unfortunately i have a habit of blurting them out. meh. okay...moving on

Last night was....craziness...my brain just kept spinning until the only thing i could do was sit in my room in the dark and breathe. So mcuh whirring of activity, and it's not like i'm terribly busy with stuff, per say, mostly that people are talking me in circles until i don't know what to think , what to do, or what to say. I can't stand it when that happens, b.c then you have tons of things to remember and guess what happens when those tons of things start to conflict with one another? You have a train wreck. That's what you have...and guess what happened yesterday. A train wreck dearies, a train wreck. o well! haha I survived i guess! You know the old saying "what doesn't kill you...hehe we'll just leave it at that"

8:33....8:36...he's here...mehhh

D:D:D:D:D:

gotta go for now. More updates on my life later haha.

Tah Tah!

~me

you sing it Elton John!  You have no idea how happy i am that today is a WEEKEND day. It makes me wanna jump up and join in the song mehself.

At the moment I'm doing nothing so exciting. I'm cleaning my room, but TONITE there will be boyfriend sightings a little after 5. Then! i come home go to church in the morning see al again and we'll go do something fun like...ice skating...or...sledding. or maybe watch a horrifically scary film (not really that scary just if it's the first time you see it *me=desensitized*)

wooooah...looking at me right now you would have no idea how hyper my brain...it seems that this hyper disease has evolved into quite a hard thing to pin down. I'm not exhibiting any of the normal symptoms of hyperness. but in my brain there is MASS CHAOS! and what's even BETTER is that I REALLY AM ENJOYING THIS. XD *bounces once in her chair for emphasizzle*...(emphasizzle? *facepalm* what am I ON?!?!?)

I'm currently trying to send mountains of unfinished manuscript to my laptop so i can become a mobile writer once again. Most of my best work was done on my first laptop until it went to the "Tech Support System" in the sky....*a moment of silence in reverent remembrance* *moment's over*

I am serious this time about getting more of my writing done now that i have a laptop once again. SO here i am. ^_^

And here I go! I just remember i have to finish something....chore related that's nagging me, so i'd better go an do it before i forget that i need to do something...(tho i'll be a cold cucumber if i can remember what the SOMETHING is...just that i have to do it.........there must be crack in the tap water....that's the answer...)

Ok!
Toodles!
~T

I'm tired...

k. done.

now was that 2 words...or 3????? (o_o?) I have no idea. 

i'm off! later peeps!

~T.  

 Okay so i've been feeling much better lately and got to finished some hw so i deceded to post another anime review and comment some more on my life thus far. 

So it's tuesday, I went to my class tomorrow i have work. 

I was thinking about baby names yesterday....for no reason really, i read baby names books for fun and especially when I'm thinking about new character ideas when I write, so, that's why usually. and I came up with a really cool boy's name you ready for this? Sylvan. I think it's so cool.  Al and I "talk" about baby names on and off and we both really like the name "Jade" for a girl, one of my favorite names for a girl is Linnea Elise. Al and I both like "Seth for a boy and I'll have to ask him about Sylvan. Haha, it's just so interesting how people's ideas about names change and especially the kinds of names people like. For instance, my friend Court likes tomboyish names or names that can be shortened, and still be kinda girly, so she likes names like "Veronica" aka "Ronnie". Both Al and I have unusual names so we both gravitate towards unusual names, like Jade or Linnea, something different that not everyone has, mostly because we both really like our names and like how it's set us apart from the 20 billion jennifers, megans, and katies, or the 50 billion bobs, johns, and joes. 

It would be interesting to hear more about what you guys look for in names. ^_^ Let me know ^_^

I could smell spring this morning, the sun came though my window and by the time i got on campus that familiar spring feeling seemed to cut throught eh winter drabbness like a warm gentle sigh in a cold refrain. Life seems to be comign bak into the world finally and i can feel the stretch as it wakes up and gets ready to grow. It's an awe-inspiring feeling.  Like being a thread in a tapestry.

Anyway, enough philosophical jibber jabber! 

and onto the anime review!

Title: Midori Days!
Episodes: 13 (full show)
Seasons: 1 i guesstimate
Summary: Apart from being one of the more unsual love stories I've watched recently, this was teh first anime i've seen in a while that has a really fat cat in it, that makes multiple appearances...and is therefore a source of continual mirth throughout this series. Tought guy, Sejii, wakes up one morning with a little more than high school acne to worry about. It seems as through some sort of magic a girl has replaced his right hand! Talk about freakish! As the story unfolds we learn that the girl's name is midori and that she's had a HUGE crush on  Mr. Tough  Guy for three years now. We also learn that her original body has slipped into a strange coma, and is unable to be wakened. This cute anime is your typical fare for most romantic comedies, but it's presented in a rather unconventional way and makes the whole things much more enjoyable. There is some nudity, some alchohol and cigarrettes, but other than that the show itself is rather harmless. The characterization of each individual character is fantastic, but all and all their relationships, mostly how they interact with one another is largely left unembellished which takes away from the story and from the "romance".  Still it's funny and enjoyable. The story is pretty base, if you're looking for a Romeo and Juliet type romance look elsewhere. but if you're looking for some good clean silliness, you've come to the right place. 

Rating: 2 1/2 outta 5 Onigiri

today was the beginning of the end of my first winter break. I can't say that I'm sorry to see it go. It was nice and was much needed but now i'm definitely ready to go back to school and get some work done.  

i'm looking for some devious plan inspiration, *hunting...searching* as of right now no luck....*sigh*

I would REALLY like to go see Sweeny Todd some time before that movie leaves the theaters. It won a Golden Globe! So i'd like to check it out, that one and Atonement.

*sigh*

I really don't have much to say tonite (for a change haha)

G'nite
~T.

 Okay, so i liked doing that review and i just finished Chobits recently so i figured i'd humor myself (and my boredom) with another review.

Title: Chobits
Number of Episodes: 26
No films
Seasons: probably more of a small mini series so i'd wager a 1/2 a season

Summary: Abysmal Student and Country Boy, Hideki, finally makes it into college...or so he thinks. the reality of the situation is that he's in tokyo for cram school, and doing pretty badly at that too. Besides being a country boy in a big city, hideki learns about all the technology he's missed out on, while he was still taking care of cows, specifically Personcons (exceptionally human like androids) and of course, wants one desperately. So, when he finds one laying in the trash he immediately takes it home and that's where our story begins. Enter Chi, a most unusual Perscon with very human like qualities, with a penchant for accidently shorting out other persocons and electronic appliances innocently and comically, much to the chagrin of poor Hideki, who above all else is a compulsive neurotic worrier. There are a lot of sexual innuendos in this series, so it's not for the kiddies, and while there is relatively no violence, the story tends to strain at some parts making pieces of it drag a bit. The story is passable, and the likeableness of the characters carries it's weak spots through okay enough. The plot is short, and in 26 episodes they cover a lot of ground. The relationship btwn Hideki and Chi is not as strong as eveyone seems to assume and by the time the series closes, I was left wondering if it made sense. *shrugs* still and all, Hideki's neurotic behavior and talking to himself, and Chi's irrepressable innocence and happiness, makes this show a nice respite from the day to day doldrums.

Rating: 4 outta 5 Onigiri

I'm sensing a general pattern of getting back to the "good old days" especially with regards to our relationship, and that' is awesome. In fact, we got back to the good old days so much that I have now re-confirmed my geekness for the next five years at least. I played MY favorite MMORPG, ToP (Tales of Pirates for the acronymn challenged) 

I freaked for a second when i first started b/c i logged onto a different server than the one that i started with and my Lvl 32 Character just didn't show up and i thought it got purged but i found it and the bf and i spent many delightful hours screaming "KILL THE MONSTER!!! KILL IT!!! Wait! REST!!! NOOOO! Don't go after that one!!! NOOOOO!!!! EEEEEK!....u died again didn't u?" and "SQUID LOVE!" which is a strange but funny inside joke to most ToP players by now. 

Anyways! it was nice to get back to the old stuff for a while, and very conviently forget all about my paper...which to be honest I DID start...i just didn't do too much of it yet....hehe...(aka, title, and headers...and the thingys in the left margian). The actual meat of the paper is...to be determined...hehe (aka, I am prolly not going to English on Wed. hehe....work time!!!!!!) And we have a huge group proj. due soon for NSS which is poop too. my friend and I need to rely on two other people...that haven't shown up since the groups were assigned....*sigh* i hope they dropped and made my job so much easier....still maybe i can scare them into working...idk how...but i'd give it a shot if it meant they'd DO something...

o wells, i gotta catch some Z's gotta lot of paper writin to do tomorrow.
Cheerio!
~T.

The last two days went racing past so quickly that it took me until this morning in psych to realize that i hadn't posted...more importantly that i should post so everyone knows i'm alive haha. 

Goosey Night was...kinda not too hot. but Halloween turned out awesome. we trick-or-treated throughout my old haunts (no pun intended but implied ^_^) and got loads of candy. The best part was knowing that a year prior i had been so nervous and scared and shy i could barely make eye contact with Al and now it's coming up on our one year Anniversary. It's so excting ^_^

Today was...bleh....it's one of those transitional days btwn and after holidays that everyone would be very happy about if suddenly they didn't exsist. but in the case of reality, they do and as a result i was rather cranky especially about getting up extra early for psych when i had walked about four miles the night before and every bone in my body was cursing me for my lack of excercise hitherto Halloween. 

Yea, the subject we're covering right now in psych is sleep and dreaming. and it is very interesting, it makes me yawn alot,.....which is kinda weird but w/e. I found out that i am sleep deprived (officially now, mind you, before then i thought it was just destined to sleep my life away....go figure). They had a checklist in my book about about 15 things that kinda were like this:

If you need an alarm clock to wake up
If you are grumpy in the mornings
If you feel tired throughout the day
If you hit the snooze button multiple times before you get up
If you struggle to wake up and stay awake.
yatta....yatta...yatta....
and I was sitting there with my pencil going, *check* *check* *check*...um, *def. check* *check check*  i get down to the bottom of the page and it says, "if you checked 3 or more of these you are suffering from sleep deprivation."
I was.....-______-......"No really, sherlock, tell me something i don't know." so it did. It told me that i need to go to bed 15 minutes earlier I usually do for the whole week and then add another 15 minutes the next week and so on until I feel completely rested and I do not have to struggle to wake up in the morning. neat stuff...if icould remember exactly what time i usually go to bed around....since...it fluctuates (which as I read in my almighty texbook is also a bad thing...*sheesh*)  so i guess i'll try and try that starting next week. *schlumps over*

I also learned that I am an abnormal freak (i mean...erm, more abnormally freakish than i orignally thought.) mostly b.c i have crazy ass dreams that are NOTHING like what most scientists and researchers documented in NORMAL people.....so I'm resigned to my fate as a freak dreamer (a FREAMER!!! yay!) I often have dreams where i die (like all the way get shot and die die), where i know NO one in the dream, i am not in the dream at all, I'm watching two people like a movie, or I am a different person entirely....supposedly that's not normal at all....wooo me. hahaha

Anyhooo...............*awkward silence*.....work was poop today. I didn't like it much. boring and nasty....ok tips but the boss was his usual cranky self. Yesterday he took Valium before going to the doctors so he was all goofy and loopy and random and it was funny b/c he's usually so cranky...well today he made up for it....*grrrs*

That's my day...tomorrow doesn't look so hot either but i'll give it a blast anyway haha.

Nitey Nite
~T bird

This morning i discovered my car has an alarm.....the hard way. I got into my car sat down, touched the knob of the radio before turning the  car on and

WEEEEOOOOOWWWWEEEEEOOOOOO WWEEEEEEEEOOOOOOOWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWEEEEEEEEEEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Meanwhile I'm sitting in my car screaming like a maniac b/c it scared the crap out of me. I'm just sittin there in my drivers seat:

OH MY GOD! WHAT DID I DO! OMG! AAAAAAAHHHHH WHAT DID I DO! MAKE IT STOP!!!! AAAHHH HOW DO I TURN IT OFF! I"M SORRY I"M SORRY!!!! AAAAAAAHHHHH!

meanwhile my nextdoor neighbor is coming out of his house and he sees this. I can only imagine what he thought hahaha.It was so funny in retrospect. but...haha at the time it certainly woke me up from the stupor i'd been in....

BRRRR it was FREEEZING today on campus!!!! I froze my tush off! (LITERALLY!) I had my psych midterm today...I'm eh about it, I don't know how i did, but I know that i studied and then i look at the test and my brain went....O.O.....*wind whistling* *tumbleweeds rolling*....*crickets*......But we got outta there  nice and early so a friend of mine and I grabbed a quick hot coco and bumped into heather on our way.

Went to class, sat through mythology. it was fun and cool and everything, got out, met up with heather grabbed some junk food (now i wish i'd eaten a sandwhich.....) and sat chit-chatting for a little while, until we bumped into some guy from Elizabeth H.S. who happened to overhear our convo about MB. Funny how where ever you go you end up meeting up with people who were in MB. I'm beginning to believe that everyone is a closet band geek at heart...or you're the cold plastic type...and you don't need one so it all works out.

Then we had to stop at webster hall to fix her cell. and we were coming out of the student center and she gets WEDGED IN THE REVOLVING DOOR!!!!!! My heart almost stopped beating! I just see her laughing  with half her body btwn the door and half still in the student center and i went "OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" (we had a previous close call and from then on i knew it was only a matter of time before it actually happened, but i was still totally unprepared for it to happen today...which would explain my reaction. -____-'''''')

BUT! The best part of my day was def. seeing the bf after school. It was nice and he was in a pretty good mood so that put me in an awesome mood. He's def. happier which makes me happy too.

SUNDAY IS OUR ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY CELEBRATIONS!

Just thought i'd throw that out there

O! I gotta run to babysitting Money for the broke college girl!! yay!
Toodles
~T.