Memories By Inner Light

Today is the day of the famed (infamous) marching band carwash. I am not actually working said car wash, but will be showing up, mostly because the exterior of my car is filthy and I will be happy  seeing some friends, o and did i mention it was FREEEEEEEE? well it is FREEEEEE but donations are highly appreciated. *sigh* *checks wallet* *emptiness*...well dad owes me ten bucks so I'll put my widows mite in.

then i have choir rehersal *fwump* No no! Don't make me goooo!...today that is one of the LAST places i want to be....I'm really not in the mood. As it is, i sat there yesterday and sang my lungs off for two hours. What miffed me was the fact that EARLIER in the week my dad had asked me to make time (Tuesday i think) and he said, "I'll call you down when everythings set up." and he never did.  So fine. I set aside time and you don't utilize it, not my problem. Sorry. So then YESTERDAY he's like, "We need to go over music." and I looked at him and said, "No way." He got pissed. "Why not? You told me we'd work on this." Very calmly i replied that he'd asked me on tuesday and I had said yes. I made time and then he brushed me off to do what HE wanted and therefore, I did not want to practice, I had made plans and now my time was my own and idc if he got mad. It's not my fault.  And then Al called and told me he'd be late -_____- so i practiced....but it still pissed me off.

Also, I'll be housesitting tonite, from around 6 until w/e I call it housesitting because I'll only really be babysitting for about an hour. And then it's "Therese gets to watch CABLE TV OMI GOURDS!" -_____- i get excited over the weirdest things i know. To be honest, I don't have cable to WATCHING cable on an actual TV....is.....O.O awesome.

I miss al right now.....*sigh*....everyone's busy doing fun stuff....'cept me.....*siiiiiiiiiiiiigh*....

well that may change. If i can get my hands on some tickets I hope to be taking al to see TSO for christmas. ^_^ and then a little thing for him under the tree oughta to do it.

Good Lord...*counts on fingers* Christmas is 3 and a half months away?!?! no way!?!?!? *counts again*.....O.O waaaaaay......and there are TWO other major holidays, midterms AND finals squeezed in there! Wowza...my life is about to get VERY busy hahahaha.

*sigh* okay back to missing al. I'd better get dressed and head over to the carwash. it starts around 8 but i'll try and be a little fasionably late. >.<   <-hates being late grrrr

 I decided to join the Society for Barefoot Living. The obvious reason is that I LIKE going barefoot. The second reason is that i just felt like it and it seemed like something fun to do! Yes i kno it's very random, but w/e. What's life without a little spontaneity!? eh? Also...membership was free (*feels that this revelation somewhat taints my "innocent" motives*) which is good because i can't pay for any more stuff right now. As it is i NEED Julian's birthday present to get it's butt here STAT.

Oy, just checked Amazon. It's not gonna be shipped until october....no freakin way.....*sigh* I'll get him something else then and make that his Christmas present....woo! which reminds me...i need to start my shopping NOW so that come Christmas i don't have to freak when my bank account goes kaput.

Classes this semester...have ceased to wow me...i was wowed for about...10 minutes....now i'm done. I just wanna get to break...what's the coundown look like. Dec 18? is the last day? today's the 9th? 3 months and..9 days *wipes face with hands*

COming up in my next post! The return of my Anime Review:Post Summer Edition!

For now!
Ciao~

Note the above Key term that i'm staring at in my sociology class at this moment. Class hasn't started yet. Students are still trickling in slower and slower as the room slowly fills up.

It makes you wonder whether EVERYONE is looking for their own social fit. Maybe some people (i'd like to think of myself as one of these people) who really isn't LOOKING for a fit. They just kinda want to live, unimpeded and graciously unintterupted.

Perhaps it is that thought in itslef that causes 'the search" however i am skeptical. Profs here gotta fly!


Later!

That it had been TWO DAYS since I last posted (erm, going off of what i saw YESTERDAY meaning Wednesday)....wtf???? when did monday and tuesday happen?!?!?!?! and why wasn't I informed!?!?!?!...this is what i get for not sleeping and working in a place that forces me to look at a screen and NOWHERE ELSE!!! for 8 hours.....holy guacamole....and it's not like i don't get out...I've been out...3 outta the 4 days this week..and i'm STILL GOING OUT.....i must be oblivious...or uber busy...and i'd like to think it was a combination of the two.

P.S. Al finally got his truck...aka...Therese doesn't have to do all the driving (I really will miss it...*sniffles*) HOWEVER this also means that, Al can pick me up for dates...whihc makes me feel all girly and cute inside....*sees flowers and rainbows everywhere* *happy music*

and then I'm reminded that we're not GOING anywhere on a trip really *Rainbows flicker out abruptly...flowers wilt and die...* *happy music squeals to a painfully slow halt*....girly feeling gone....still wants ibuprofen.....REALITY STRIKES....Reality is definitely OVERRATED....yearns for just a leetle rainbow....


I'm really going to bed this time, I'm getting sleep tonite!!!!

*end of random noticing* (god i sound like professor jones..."Tell me your noticings! While i drink this Alcoholic (erm..uh....) NON-Alcoholic tea!" <- drunk professors very entertaining....

I can't honestly remember sitting still for very long at all this weekend. Between going to courts, dinner with al's family, church, then movies then coming home and gettign ready for bed there's been soo much going on and i actually liked it. I liked being in the rush for once instead of standing outside and watching it whirl around others while leaving me out.

Actually i have to call someone about workign today so I can't type long, just long enough to say HappY monday and...o crap I have another speech to do!!! and it's Due wed! Crud.

O well it'll be a quickie!

FIVE WEEKS LEFT UNTIL SUMMER BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!

*WHOOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

*dances happyness*

Laterz

    Oh my god. My professor....is insane.....and...extremely jaded. -_____-.....so so so freakishly.....*mouth's open* i have no idea what word to use to describe this man's psychology....twisted...with a touch of sexual harassment....i think that's apt.

He just said something that I can't repeat, mostly bc i'm just trying to forget about it as quickly as possible.

and today as the saga of the permanent marker. Actually, this saga started *unbeknownst* to us, on Friday in class. Prof. T, wrote all over half of the board with a PERMANENT marker.  SO we get back to class today and ALL of our notes from Friday are STILL on the board. So we come in and i overhear one of the other students was talking about how he had a class in here and his professor was flipping out about the notes being in permanent marker.

So when Prof. T. comes in he's delighted that the notes are still there....until he tries to erase it.....then we tel him about the permanent marker and he just kinda shrugs it off and tries to place the blame on "modern technology"...i.e. a dry erase board and marker.....-___-...
so Then! he goes to write on the board with the SAME marker he was using on Friday *facepalm*...so a brave soul speaks up and tells him...and then he finally finds an actual dry erase marker and the class proceeds on as normally as possible...barring that CRAZY comment he made before....O.O....he's crazy! that's what it is! hahaha

O well!

Note to self:

FILL YOUR TANK ON THE WAY HOME OR YOUR CAR WILL STOP WORKING!!!!!

okay,, hopefully it'll sink in this time hahaha.

Tonight, i'm SUPPOSED to have a walk with al, but i'm not really gonna hold my breath, we haven't had one in two weeks, and he's been really busy lately. So...it won't surprise me if we can't today. I was a little dissapointed the last two weeks, but i'm just learning to step back and make myself scarce when he needs time. So yesterday, i wasn't upset at all. I missed him, but i wasn't upset....

It's just for the next two years. Then stuff should relax a bit *hopefully* i don't expect it to go back to the way it used to be...but i expect a maturer romantic sensibility. Not that we'll be less romantic...hopefully we'll be more so. Just something a little more grown up..more focused on the long term goals. It wll be great! Once we get there ^_^. I can wait as long as he needs me to.

*sigh* i should really pay more attention haha...so i'm gonna go.

laterz!
~T

Haha, well it was an excitign day by the time it ended yesterday. I visited with the girlies. We went to Panera bread. The weather was pretty rainy and slick out.

And then I went to Al's. We were fine for a while hung out and talked to his sister, her birthday is tomorrow. And then we went shopping and did some more minor things. We were trying to keep under wraps the information about her surprise party which was hard to do.
But   the wind started getting really bad and just as he and his mom and i were just going to start cooking dinner when we heard a HUGE straining crack and then we ran to the window and looked and saw a huge explosion. A huge tree had been blown over and blew up the transformer across the street, and then all of the power went out.

haha it was scary and fun at the same time. scary b/c  they closed bother sides of the street and there were tons of cops/ambulances/and firghtfigthers. On the fun side, it was very romantic, we had a cold dinner by candlelight, he serenaded me with the acoustic guitar, and we snuggled on the couch until my ride came to "get" me. truthfully i would have rather stayed there and just slept quietly, comfortably in his arms. I could be there for ever. It was the most romantic mood we'd been in for a while and it was nice to get back to the basics with lovely scented candles, a blanket and nowhere to go, nothing to do, except talk, and be together.

today was alright. I had church, then lunch, then nothign for a while...some time to chill out, then my dad dropped me off so i could pick up my car and al and I hung out for a while and played video games, it was alot of fun.

Now i'm tired! haha so sweet dreams everyone!

~T

why it is so gloomy today? haha i mean it's almost spring right? shouldn't everything be a little more "in the spirit" no? Sheesh!

Well,  this morning i was awakened by my brother's alarm for work....around....7ish? truthfully i was already awake and had been for a while and was just waiting for an excuse to get up.

my day thus far has been comprised of about 3 hours of surfing the web (it's now about  ten i got up and forgot i left you up! I'm sorry!)

i fed all the members of our menagierie this morning, (Wubbilicious(aka Gurly, aka The Hat, aka Tornado-Face), Phantom, Comet, Pepper, Angel, Grigio, AND Acey-mush)

the house is absurdly silent, even the sounds of animal munchies has become almost non-existant...nvrm....my parents just came home...wow...it got quiet quick..nrvm they're arguing.

*sigh* i have a bad feeling about today. Idk what it is but soemthing is....gnawing at me, and i just have a feeling....a weird strange feeling.....*wants to listen to instincts* at the same time *would really rather be wrong*.....

ha.....
anyways i may be seeing Court today and Meg E.  I was supposed to see them @ noon but who knows the weather's kinda scary O.O, I also need to find out where we're going...haha *dur*

annnneeeehoooooooooo (i do say that way too much don't i?)

the house is silent again, the parents just *releft*....*shrug*

I *started* my documented essay yesterday @ work and it was remarkably easy....i got only about 75% of the intro finished but it's better than nothing. verdad? si!!!!!!!


idk....i think...today will be ok moodwise...i'm feeling...kinda neutral..which is weird b/c i've never really felt neutral...usually it's happy...or...something not so happy. today is just a weird....eh. It's not bad...it's not good...but it IS....it's just there! *finds this annoying  beyond belief*....also, i have the slightest feeling that my writer's block may finally be dissipating *holy crud! that was a long long stretch of ZERO creative writing...a good 6 months right? maybe more? idr....*sigh* I MUST re-start some of my manuscripts and quickly jumpstart myself...i need some good picture prompts....*oy* I don't really wanna look for them....and i need to shower....no wonder why it's taking me so long to get back to my "inner muse"....

well, if i get started soon i'll have some time when i get outta the shower. ^_^ yay!

and hopefully I'll see al today.

that's all for right now!

Later gator

~T

unfortunately i have a habit of blurting them out. meh. okay...moving on

Last night was....craziness...my brain just kept spinning until the only thing i could do was sit in my room in the dark and breathe. So mcuh whirring of activity, and it's not like i'm terribly busy with stuff, per say, mostly that people are talking me in circles until i don't know what to think , what to do, or what to say. I can't stand it when that happens, b.c then you have tons of things to remember and guess what happens when those tons of things start to conflict with one another? You have a train wreck. That's what you have...and guess what happened yesterday. A train wreck dearies, a train wreck. o well! haha I survived i guess! You know the old saying "what doesn't kill you...hehe we'll just leave it at that"

8:33....8:36...he's here...mehhh

D:D:D:D:D:

gotta go for now. More updates on my life later haha.

Tah Tah!

~me

you sing it Elton John!  You have no idea how happy i am that today is a WEEKEND day. It makes me wanna jump up and join in the song mehself.

At the moment I'm doing nothing so exciting. I'm cleaning my room, but TONITE there will be boyfriend sightings a little after 5. Then! i come home go to church in the morning see al again and we'll go do something fun like...ice skating...or...sledding. or maybe watch a horrifically scary film (not really that scary just if it's the first time you see it *me=desensitized*)

wooooah...looking at me right now you would have no idea how hyper my brain...it seems that this hyper disease has evolved into quite a hard thing to pin down. I'm not exhibiting any of the normal symptoms of hyperness. but in my brain there is MASS CHAOS! and what's even BETTER is that I REALLY AM ENJOYING THIS. XD *bounces once in her chair for emphasizzle*...(emphasizzle? *facepalm* what am I ON?!?!?)

I'm currently trying to send mountains of unfinished manuscript to my laptop so i can become a mobile writer once again. Most of my best work was done on my first laptop until it went to the "Tech Support System" in the sky....*a moment of silence in reverent remembrance* *moment's over*

I am serious this time about getting more of my writing done now that i have a laptop once again. SO here i am. ^_^

And here I go! I just remember i have to finish something....chore related that's nagging me, so i'd better go an do it before i forget that i need to do something...(tho i'll be a cold cucumber if i can remember what the SOMETHING is...just that i have to do it.........there must be crack in the tap water....that's the answer...)

Ok!
Toodles!
~T

 Okay so i've been feeling much better lately and got to finished some hw so i deceded to post another anime review and comment some more on my life thus far. 

So it's tuesday, I went to my class tomorrow i have work. 

I was thinking about baby names yesterday....for no reason really, i read baby names books for fun and especially when I'm thinking about new character ideas when I write, so, that's why usually. and I came up with a really cool boy's name you ready for this? Sylvan. I think it's so cool.  Al and I "talk" about baby names on and off and we both really like the name "Jade" for a girl, one of my favorite names for a girl is Linnea Elise. Al and I both like "Seth for a boy and I'll have to ask him about Sylvan. Haha, it's just so interesting how people's ideas about names change and especially the kinds of names people like. For instance, my friend Court likes tomboyish names or names that can be shortened, and still be kinda girly, so she likes names like "Veronica" aka "Ronnie". Both Al and I have unusual names so we both gravitate towards unusual names, like Jade or Linnea, something different that not everyone has, mostly because we both really like our names and like how it's set us apart from the 20 billion jennifers, megans, and katies, or the 50 billion bobs, johns, and joes. 

It would be interesting to hear more about what you guys look for in names. ^_^ Let me know ^_^

I could smell spring this morning, the sun came though my window and by the time i got on campus that familiar spring feeling seemed to cut throught eh winter drabbness like a warm gentle sigh in a cold refrain. Life seems to be comign bak into the world finally and i can feel the stretch as it wakes up and gets ready to grow. It's an awe-inspiring feeling.  Like being a thread in a tapestry.

Anyway, enough philosophical jibber jabber! 

and onto the anime review!

Title: Midori Days!
Episodes: 13 (full show)
Seasons: 1 i guesstimate
Summary: Apart from being one of the more unsual love stories I've watched recently, this was teh first anime i've seen in a while that has a really fat cat in it, that makes multiple appearances...and is therefore a source of continual mirth throughout this series. Tought guy, Sejii, wakes up one morning with a little more than high school acne to worry about. It seems as through some sort of magic a girl has replaced his right hand! Talk about freakish! As the story unfolds we learn that the girl's name is midori and that she's had a HUGE crush on  Mr. Tough  Guy for three years now. We also learn that her original body has slipped into a strange coma, and is unable to be wakened. This cute anime is your typical fare for most romantic comedies, but it's presented in a rather unconventional way and makes the whole things much more enjoyable. There is some nudity, some alchohol and cigarrettes, but other than that the show itself is rather harmless. The characterization of each individual character is fantastic, but all and all their relationships, mostly how they interact with one another is largely left unembellished which takes away from the story and from the "romance".  Still it's funny and enjoyable. The story is pretty base, if you're looking for a Romeo and Juliet type romance look elsewhere. but if you're looking for some good clean silliness, you've come to the right place. 

Rating: 2 1/2 outta 5 Onigiri

today was the beginning of the end of my first winter break. I can't say that I'm sorry to see it go. It was nice and was much needed but now i'm definitely ready to go back to school and get some work done.  

i'm looking for some devious plan inspiration, *hunting...searching* as of right now no luck....*sigh*

I would REALLY like to go see Sweeny Todd some time before that movie leaves the theaters. It won a Golden Globe! So i'd like to check it out, that one and Atonement.

*sigh*

I really don't have much to say tonite (for a change haha)

G'nite
~T.

 Okay, so i liked doing that review and i just finished Chobits recently so i figured i'd humor myself (and my boredom) with another review.

Title: Chobits
Number of Episodes: 26
No films
Seasons: probably more of a small mini series so i'd wager a 1/2 a season

Summary: Abysmal Student and Country Boy, Hideki, finally makes it into college...or so he thinks. the reality of the situation is that he's in tokyo for cram school, and doing pretty badly at that too. Besides being a country boy in a big city, hideki learns about all the technology he's missed out on, while he was still taking care of cows, specifically Personcons (exceptionally human like androids) and of course, wants one desperately. So, when he finds one laying in the trash he immediately takes it home and that's where our story begins. Enter Chi, a most unusual Perscon with very human like qualities, with a penchant for accidently shorting out other persocons and electronic appliances innocently and comically, much to the chagrin of poor Hideki, who above all else is a compulsive neurotic worrier. There are a lot of sexual innuendos in this series, so it's not for the kiddies, and while there is relatively no violence, the story tends to strain at some parts making pieces of it drag a bit. The story is passable, and the likeableness of the characters carries it's weak spots through okay enough. The plot is short, and in 26 episodes they cover a lot of ground. The relationship btwn Hideki and Chi is not as strong as eveyone seems to assume and by the time the series closes, I was left wondering if it made sense. *shrugs* still and all, Hideki's neurotic behavior and talking to himself, and Chi's irrepressable innocence and happiness, makes this show a nice respite from the day to day doldrums.

Rating: 4 outta 5 Onigiri

I'm tired....and i still didn't do much today. tomorrow I'll be spending the day with the bf so it should be fun and i have to remember to take those movies back to the library they're over due -____-....*sigh*....anyways.

I'm pooped out and kinda lonely. everyone had somewhere to go tonite, or something to do (that wasn't a group thing) so i'm sittin up here by myself debating about whether i want to keep watching either Love Hina, or Hand Made May and finish it. obviously there doesn't seem to be anything pressing terribly on my time at the moment, since i've been considering this option for the last 20 minutes or so. 

O! i didn't tell anyone but i'll be starting an Anime Review Guide somtime soon. scattered thoughout my entries, very now and again after i finish a show i'll give a breif summary of the show (no spoilers i promise!) how many episodes total. How many seasons, and my rating (from zero to five rice balls....in japanese rice balls are called onigiri so if i say onigiri, now you know ^_^)

So i figured i'd kick off this little venture with my very first review posted tonite, i picked an easy one, FMA so read and enjoy:

Title: Full Metal Alchemist
Number of Episodes: 51 (and one full length movie as a continuation story so round it up to 52)
Number of seasons: approx. 1 (i guess)

Summary: FMA, is the tale of two orphaned brothers trying to do the impossible while staying close to one another and dodging death, disaster and the government rife with political intrigue, making this plotline juicy with tons of twists and turns. Obviously Alchemy is involved and is a HUGE aspect of the series. There is graphic violence, if you're squeamish this is DEFINITELY NOT a show for you. But if you can get past the squirting blood you'll find a wonderfully written story that is as action packed as it is emotionally stimulating. The series starts out a little slow but it's comedic aspects carry us along willingly until all hell starts to break loose in the mid to late 20's episodes (maybe 22, 25ish?).  The array of characters is varied and colorful ranging from the height conscious Edward Elric (who HATES milk and is NOT short) to the enigmatic Colonel Mustang, and the kind-hearted Alfonse Elric who loves kittens. Definately not a show to miss!

Rating: 5 outta 5 Onigiri

Randomocity. That's where I live. Also note the title of todays entry. Compliments of my friend quaere_verum_xi who lives there too apparantly. It's very nice here...except on gloomy days...like today. I hate days when the rainclouds are indesicive. They look all gloomy and threatening, but i bet deep down they've got just as many insecurities, and self-esteem issues as everyone else. Big fluffy bullies that's all they are...they have a way of just putting an emotional damper on what should have been at least a so-so day...making it a not too good day at ALL.

I'm still pulling myself together from yesterday...which is hard to do b/c i am exhausted, I have work and I miss the bf and I want food, b/c i'm still starving. (I'm eating another granola bar...to forego the temptation to eat my cat who won't stop bugging me....anyways)


Math was pretty good. I did another 40 problems 41 counting the one exta i did in the next hw assignment. So i felt very productive, until i got to writing and basically ignored the entire lecture on comma usage, and sat doodling in my notebook to keep myself from running out of the room screaming, "I HATE COMMAS!!!!!" *ahem* moving on. I still didn't get my rough draft back from her. So i would like to know what she wants me to do with my paper...since the 2nd draft was due today...and i couldn't do anything, and i handed in my only other hard copy over to someone for extended peer edititing that will be due friday...which i should probably do while i'm at work...plus, calculate out how much money i'm going to need to do my christmas shopping online. I saw something really cute for the bf and i ("Us" as I like to call us.) but now i can't remember which mag. i found it in...*eyes teetering huge stack of christmas magazines*....*shakes head* *sigh*.

O, in case i didn't mention it, I  have my schedule for next semester. If you wanna see it, I'll probably be posting it over the weekend on my facebook, so feel free to let me know if we have any classes together. ^_^

Phew....work is coming...and i need to find my work pants...I got my work shirt...now i just need my work pants....

I need to find them so I guess I'll be back later. Hopefully cheerier than now (stupid bully rainclouds...)

~T.