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Jul. 24th, 2008

stress, over work...

*Did not notice....*

That it had been TWO DAYS since I last posted (erm, going off of what i saw YESTERDAY meaning Wednesday)....wtf???? when did monday and tuesday happen?!?!?!?! and why wasn't I informed!?!?!?!...this is what i get for not sleeping and working in a place that forces me to look at a screen and NOWHERE ELSE!!! for 8 hours.....holy guacamole....and it's not like i don't get out...I've been out...3 outta the 4 days this week..and i'm STILL GOING OUT.....i must be oblivious...or uber busy...and i'd like to think it was a combination of the two.

P.S. Al finally got his truck...aka...Therese doesn't have to do all the driving (I really will miss it...*sniffles*) HOWEVER this also means that, Al can pick me up for dates...whihc makes me feel all girly and cute inside....*sees flowers and rainbows everywhere* *happy music*

and then I'm reminded that we're not GOING anywhere on a trip really *Rainbows flicker out abruptly...flowers wilt and die...* *happy music squeals to a painfully slow halt*....girly feeling gone....still wants ibuprofen.....REALITY STRIKES....Reality is definitely OVERRATED....yearns for just a leetle rainbow....


I'm really going to bed this time, I'm getting sleep tonite!!!!

*end of random noticing* (god i sound like professor jones..."Tell me your noticings! While i drink this Alcoholic (erm..uh....) NON-Alcoholic tea!" <- drunk professors very entertaining....

Mar. 12th, 2008

stress, over work...

..and some days you're the hydrant

*sigh* today is...a so-so day. I got to bed really late after i posted, around 3ish, and then idk when i fell asleep but it wasn't enough time and so i skipped Philosophy today and then just showed up for Speech and writing. I'm sitting in my speech room now and i'm still exhausted...and i  have work...o joy.

on my way here i almost drowned ona mouthful of water, sprayed body spray in my mouth and my eye accidently,dropped my writing textbook on my foot, nearly fell down my front stoop and finally made it to my car with after hitting the scab on my right knee...i haven't checked it yet hopefully it'll be fine, and not be bleeding all over my work pants.

Despite the craziness and my penchant for being accident prone, today is remarkably laid back...there's nothing tense about it...which is weird...in a refreshing sort of way. Break is almost here b/c today is almost over and then all i have is film and Hari Kiri Friday. Two days...let's hope i survive them and think positively.

I'm gonna do my best today. I've been working really hard and NOTHING is gonna keep me down today. I'm just...not gonna quit. There is no giving up, no second guessing. I'm just gonna keep moving forward. Suck it up and keep on truckin'...i think that's kinda along the same vein as "Seize the Day".


My essay...prolly sucks...i don't think i got the whole format down AT ALL so i sent her an electronic copy and asked for her mercy and feedback. *sigh* no replies yet...she prolly won't say anything....my mindset isn't the greatest but i'm fighting it ^_^ *smile* so i should be ok in a little bit...until i get to work at least *weak laugh*

>.> *notices finger is bleeding*...o wow, i didn't even feel that haha. It's a cuticle thing haha nothing really to worry about.

Anyone wanna go to the circus with me and my fam on March 29th 7:30 Pm?
We probably wouldn't be sitting with my family since they ordered only enough tickets for my parents and my brother and his gf. but it'd be cool to go into the city with them no? I think it'd be fun *shrugs* lemme know what you think.

I gotta go, the speech midterm awaiteth.

~T.

Mar. 5th, 2008

eated teh cookie

Things better left unsaid

unfortunately i have a habit of blurting them out. meh. okay...moving on

Last night was....craziness...my brain just kept spinning until the only thing i could do was sit in my room in the dark and breathe. So mcuh whirring of activity, and it's not like i'm terribly busy with stuff, per say, mostly that people are talking me in circles until i don't know what to think , what to do, or what to say. I can't stand it when that happens, b.c then you have tons of things to remember and guess what happens when those tons of things start to conflict with one another? You have a train wreck. That's what you have...and guess what happened yesterday. A train wreck dearies, a train wreck. o well! haha I survived i guess! You know the old saying "what doesn't kill you...hehe we'll just leave it at that"

8:33....8:36...he's here...mehhh

D:D:D:D:D:

gotta go for now. More updates on my life later haha.

Tah Tah!

~me

- September 8 -
You are very clever and knowledgeable. You are very calm and cool in social situations. You are kind and sympathetic to people, although you like to choose your friends carefully. QuizGalaxy.com
Positive Traits:
pragmatic, optimistic, idealistic, stamina, good judgment
Negative Traits:
obsessive, careless, can be misunderstood easily, thoughtless

'What does your Birthdate mean?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Mar. 1st, 2008

rave party

SATTADAY! SAA-TADAY SATTADAY Night's AWRIGHT! AWRIIIGHT!!!!!WooOOoooo!

you sing it Elton John!  You have no idea how happy i am that today is a WEEKEND day. It makes me wanna jump up and join in the song mehself.

At the moment I'm doing nothing so exciting. I'm cleaning my room, but TONITE there will be boyfriend sightings a little after 5. Then! i come home go to church in the morning see al again and we'll go do something fun like...ice skating...or...sledding. or maybe watch a horrifically scary film (not really that scary just if it's the first time you see it *me=desensitized*)

wooooah...looking at me right now you would have no idea how hyper my brain...it seems that this hyper disease has evolved into quite a hard thing to pin down. I'm not exhibiting any of the normal symptoms of hyperness. but in my brain there is MASS CHAOS! and what's even BETTER is that I REALLY AM ENJOYING THIS. XD *bounces once in her chair for emphasizzle*...(emphasizzle? *facepalm* what am I ON?!?!?)

I'm currently trying to send mountains of unfinished manuscript to my laptop so i can become a mobile writer once again. Most of my best work was done on my first laptop until it went to the "Tech Support System" in the sky....*a moment of silence in reverent remembrance* *moment's over*

I am serious this time about getting more of my writing done now that i have a laptop once again. SO here i am. ^_^

And here I go! I just remember i have to finish something....chore related that's nagging me, so i'd better go an do it before i forget that i need to do something...(tho i'll be a cold cucumber if i can remember what the SOMETHING is...just that i have to do it.........there must be crack in the tap water....that's the answer...)

Ok!
Toodles!
~T

Jan. 31st, 2008

no trespassing

Just a quick word (or 2) before i go...

I'm tired...

k. done.

now was that 2 words...or 3????? (o_o?) I have no idea. 

i'm off! later peeps!

~T.  

Jan. 4th, 2008

no trespassing

*headache face*

today.....was poop. that's the short and the short of it. just...POO! that's it! 

Yesterday was pretty good...today....*see above*. 

Let me start with yesterday b4 i rant.

I had a pretty good day at work, made nice munnies. Had some time to chill, and relax a little, got to talk to the bf. ALSO, i was recorded yesterday (erm and into early this morning). I laid down vocal tracks down in my uncles recording studio (it's in his basement don't get excited) for the song my dad is working on with his band last night, so I'm GONNA BE ON THE CD *uber excited about this*. I may even get credited for it as something like "guest vocalist" or something....idk....*shouldn't hope for that*  But anyways, i was leery about it, b/c my last time in the recording studio was right after my surgery and it took FOREVER to lay down the stuff i had to do that time (easily 3 visits at roughly 3 or 4 hours a visit and i STILL wasn't too thrilled about the way it came out. chya, it was a nightmare). So i was scared when they asked me to come back and do more stuff. 

I had to play a role. I was a spirit, speaking to the damned....schweet. The song is based on Canto XXVI of Dante's Inferno. My dad is doing one canto, and it's a collaborative project, so there are 33 other bands taking each of the 34 Cantos from the book and writing songs to fit each one.  

So I was Beatrice, Dante's "angel" and i was speaking to the souls of the damned. Reminding them of the things they had disregarded in life. And...i was reminding them in Greek. Which wasn't too hard to do actually. I had four lines to sing, 3 were variations of the same notes, 1 was completely different. The intervals were the hardest thing tho, my dad loves complex note patterns so when he writes stuff, the notes and chords may be simple but the actual note intervals can be a pain to get down. But i did it and it sounded pretty good, when I heard the playback. 

yea but everything was laid down, synced and  perfect  in about 3 hours this time. We went in around 10:30  and got out from my uncle's around...1 am and as "payment" my dad took me to Dunkin Doughnuts and got me doughnuts and hot coco. yum!

And then...today happened.....

First off I slept late b/c i'd been up until around 2, and my phone was on silent so i missed al's call, which made me feel horrible. Then I sit down and i'm feeling sick and still aching from all the excercising i'd been doing. I remembered just as i was about to eat lunch that i needed to be at work extra early which pissed me off to no end, b/c the reason WHY i have to be there is so that the other waitress can make it to the gym.....to work out for an hour.....before she picks up her son from daycare......since WHEN does ANYONE ever do me THOSE kinds of favors....WTF? I mean, this is YOUR JOB. YOU applied for it and told ME that you'd be able to work THESE hours. now....you decide to go and workout and I have to accomodate YOUR schedule? I have a bad feeling. And y'know, I thought i'd be having Mondays and Tuesdays off....bull. Today she tells me that she made a doctor's appt. and that she can't change it, meaning... I'll be working ALL DAY tuesday...AND ALL DAY wednesday......that's two work your ass off shifts back to back...and one of them she PROMISED ME she'd be able to do it. I think she's full of it. 

The only good that's coming out of this is the money....if i survive long enough to get to pay day.

SO then, I start working and there is this old gentleman whom I really enjoy talking to. He's a really nice old man who has AWESOME stories and is just a great grandpa-ish sorta guy. But he talked to me straight through my break....for TWO HOURS! And that means i didn't get to call al at all and apologize. NOR did i get a chance to ask him if he wanted to hang out tonite, which made me feel more miserable. 

But anyway. It's pretty slow most of the night until around 6ish. And it picks up to a nice pace, not busy busy, but steady. We close at SEVEN IN THE EVENING!!!! Meaning, clean up is over, there are no more customers, no more food, no more nothing.....Nothing burns me up more than inconsiderate people. Well guess what....it's 5 minutes to seven and i'm taking care of a family figuring they're my last customers. I'm tired, cranky and hurt everywhere. A man and his wife walk in, look at me and say, "Are we too late? We know you close at seven we were just wondering if we could get a meal...."...well no freakin' duh. What was i gonna say, "GET OUT YOU SELFISH BASTARDS!!!!!!" No....b/c my jerk boss comes out, recognizes them and they ask him and HE LET"S THEM STAY!.....First off, it stands to reason that if you KNOW you're gonna be an ASSHOLE and show up somewhere five minutes before closing demanding a sit-down meal, it MAY just cross your mind that YOU SHOULDN"T GO IN THE FIRST PLACE! But no...these selfish pricks sat and nursed their freakin meals until they were growing cobwebs...chatting it up with other customers, just being ABSOLUTE JERKS.....and I hate them. Of COURSE they wanted coffee after their meal...it didn't come across to them at all that MAYBE they should GO HOME, since andy did them a favor and let them stay in the first place.....and it's not like I can go if it's time to close...no...I gotta stay. watching them WASTE my time and be selfish and rude and absolutely horrible customers.

But WAIT there's MORE! These people are still not gone and it's 7:30!!!!! I'm doing whatever i can to get all my clean up responsibilities done around them so that i can pretty much just leave as soon as get their freaking faces stuffed and leave. ANOTHER ASSHOLE COMES IN!

He sits down at the counter and looks at me guiltily ALREADY and goes, "So are you gonna be open for a while?" Before Andy could come out of the kitchen and "recognize" him i looked at the guy and said, "No sorry, we're in the process of closing right now. We usually close at 7. Please take a menu and have a good night."  He glances at the other people and goes, "Are you sure?" I looked at them and at him and said, "They're the boss's family. Goodnight." So he left, thank god....i was gonna strangle him with my apron strings. 

I went to call al, hopefully to hang out and talk a bit...and he's with the guys tonite getting his "guy time" quota in....it's not his fault....I was just kinda....wanting to talk b/c it felt like ages since we've had a good chat. But i'm glad he's with the guys. He needs his time to just veg out with the guys...unfortunately at the moment i can't do much...b/c most of my friends don't live near enough to me so that we can hang out and my highschool friends I have to get in touch with soon so that we can hang out. 

But yea, i came home and we had company....so i couldn't cry....or rant....or anything...except slink upstairs to my lair with some cold pizza and soda. 

So here i am....

This weekend should be pretty awesome. I got a call from KAZE of all people! I miss her like crazy and she gave me a call! I have to call her back! AND tomorrow nite, my mom and I are going to see the AMAZING MANDAZ perform with her acting troupe on pArk Ridge so it should be an awesome time.

Sunday will be really good too, my aunt is takin, Al, Megan, Julian and I into NYC to see the Grinch: The Musical  and then to a really awesome restaurant for dinner after the show. At the moment we're thinking maybe, Jekyll and Hyde's, The Singing Waiters Restaurant (idk the real name), Planet Hollywood, or Hard Rock Cafe and I am SOOOOOOOOOOO excited. *have to remember to bring my camera*

Well, i guess i'll go and get some writing done now that all the emotional turmoil is starting to die down...

Have a great nite!!!

~T

Nov. 2nd, 2007

penguin pokie

Guess where I'm posting from???

COLLEGE!!!!! This is my first post from college, in fact I'm sitting in the library in the computer lab kinda just wsting time before class starts. 

O! This morning i did manage to prove that  you don't need to be hyper to do stupid things. Last night i was so exhausted that I grabbed what I thought was my stuffed bear (yes, I do. B/c it's comfy~!) and this morning i woke up and realized I grabbed my yeti slipper instead....kinda funny...kinda sad...i couldn't even tell the difference btwn my slipper and a bear....-_____-.....

Today is Definately a yeti slipper day. it's getting colder outside and the mornings are creaky and chilly. 

Class is gonna start soon gotta go!

~T.  

Oct. 27th, 2007

stress, over work...

the start of the longest weekend of my life....

This is probably the longest...boringest, and just mangiest weekend to date (yes i did call it mangy). The bf has gone to Syracuse........ T_T

I told myself, I would only cry once this weekend or not at all, so i've been feverishly wasting my time to keep my mind off of thinking, "If i had just one extra year we could have been up there this year together." I played video games, i sent people tons of stuff on facebook, i slept, took meds...felt sick...sat in the car for two hours waiting for my dad to finish up talking about the music for tomorrow's mass with our pastor. Watched the rain, listened to perky music. Ate...petted my cats...put on layers b/c i was cold...took off layers b/c i was hot, looked at my halloween costume. Thought about some devious plans, played with my cell phone...dropped my cell phone. got laughed at by my dad b/c he was making my headache worse...-_____-.... and i'm doing pretty well, it's 3:21, and hopefully...i won't run out of things to do.....thought after i post here...i'm not so sure....i'll be able to think of anything else.

Well I'll update y'all on my life thus far and we'll see how far we go. Thursday. Was the big pumpkin carving bash. Got meh costume. Al got parts of his (he's being a leprecaun hunter b/c his friends asked him too...i think they're the leprecauns...idrk...) ANYHOO i went to the doctors that morning and was there for three hours. mostly just waiting. But when they finally examined me it took every ounce of self control to keep me from howling. (speaking of which did you check out the new layout for Halloween?) sooo much pain AND it was really uncomfortable. Nothing i want to go again anytime soon. They took blood which made my arm hurt (they had to poke around for the vein a bit....yeeeowch). After they took blood i got dizzy and my arm ached like heck but it wasn't until i started carving my pumpkin that it really acted up. I was so exhausted thursday nite i just went right to bed after dropping the bf home.

Friday! Was borning. math was boring, writing was funny but i think i was going through some sort of medication withdrawl b/c i had to come off that Sudafed times 10 medication and i didn't take it that morning cause i wasn't supposed to and I just got chills and a splitting headache. It was bad news. Made worse by bright light and moving around, so pretty much, I would have done better living under a rock for that day. Work was uber slow which i was kinda grateful for even though the cash wasn't too great.

O! I need to post my animated short for this week. Kinda cool just in time for halloween ^_^



Enjoy!

I gotta go do something constructive....like chores or something....-____-''