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Sep. 8th, 2008

stress, over work...

19 years young

*ahem*
I'm officially 19 years old. today. yes. it is my birthday.

I have gotten....a...LOT of wonderful wonderful birthday wishes and I would like to take the time to thank everyone all over again for the truly thoughtful well wishes. It meant alot and i was pleasantly surprised to see just how many people wished me well. it was very touching. Thank you again.

I must say, (reflecting on the day as a whole) that it was a resounding success. Not just emotionally, but i got a lot done and still managed to have a wonderful evening with my family. I worked, i studied and i played hard. I'm feeling it but its a great feeling of tired and accomplished. Hopefully once i'm a nurse I'll be able to come home feeling like this most nights.

I think the weirdest feeling is knowing that next year....i'll be 20 years old. thats two DECADES. Not only that but it'll signify a whole new realm of life around the corner. Marriage, carreer, family changes, financial changes, alot of things really. I think i'm just a little incredulous, and awestruck....who'd have thought it would come so quickly?

Mmmmmmm *thinking*

well i have to check my schedule for when and where i have to be and then i have to play more SPore and do some reading (*grin*)

so I'll take my leave and wake up tomorrow one year closer to that future...weird feeling.....huh...

Aug. 3rd, 2008

stress, over work...

Weekend in Review

My deepest sympathies go to my friend and her family, I know perhaps you're tired of hearing it and would rather move on, but I can't feel right inside without expressing my deepest condolences on your loss.


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We went on our mini roadtrip on saturday and it ended up going into sunday which was awesome. I'm glad i made a (good hopefully) impression on his aunt and uncle. I really love those people they are amazing.

Al was amazing too. I loved waking up, walking a room down and poking my head in to say good morning.  He's so handsome when he's asleep(almost as handsome as he is when he's awake Hee hee)... i could just sit and watch him for hours...i don't care if it sounds stalkerish...i'm his girlfriend i'm allowed to stare at him as long as i want(or until my eyes dry up, whichever comes first).

We had a great time. We got to test out the new hot tub with uncle john and auntie cathy. We had many hours of delightful laugter and conversation. Something i needed desperately. I met their cats all 12 of them and loved them all.

Auntie Flo arrived on time but amidst the good cheer and wonderful company, her evil machinations were rendered harmless.  We hit traffic going home and I just managed to squeak into church on time for the 5pm mass. but all and all the whole trip was a resounding success. Al got me a beautiful necklace and i love it to bits. I also got a new purse at an environmentally friendly store (w/e that means)in historic Smithsville. I got presents for Al and the family. And managed to not break the budget.

We were afraid at first because it had rained so hard on our way down on Saturday but luckily everything cleared up into a B-E-A-UTIFUL day. I hear that North you guys got hit pretty hard....my sympathies.

The only downside...Auntie Flo has worn. me.out. I am absolutely exhausted.

so on that note, i will wrap this post up and go back to the grind (unwillingly) tomorrow  morning.

Good news: We got invited back! So hopefully in a few weeks we'll be heading back down there.

Ciao

Mar. 31st, 2008

penguin pokie

And the whirl of activity slow slips back into a sigh

I can't honestly remember sitting still for very long at all this weekend. Between going to courts, dinner with al's family, church, then movies then coming home and gettign ready for bed there's been soo much going on and i actually liked it. I liked being in the rush for once instead of standing outside and watching it whirl around others while leaving me out.

Actually i have to call someone about workign today so I can't type long, just long enough to say HappY monday and...o crap I have another speech to do!!! and it's Due wed! Crud.

O well it'll be a quickie!

FIVE WEEKS LEFT UNTIL SUMMER BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!

*WHOOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

*dances happyness*

Laterz

Mar. 29th, 2008

rave party

Party Times @ Eastern Uni!

I really like the campus here. Court and i hung out with her friends until around 11:30ish. Then we came back here and had a sisterly heart-to-heart. I missed those alot since she went away to school. I said some prayers before i slept and then i woke up around 8:30 and texted al for a litle bit. Everything's quieter here and alot less rushed, there seems to be time to do anything and everything just kinda takes it's own pace. I really like that. Really really like that.

her friends are sweet and we had fun. We watched Save the Last Dance and then talked intermittently of funny random things and then looks up weird videos on YouTube. haha.

Today Court and I (and maybe some of the girls) will be going into the town for some shopping and hangout picture times. ^_^

I should get dressed and start moving haha.

Laterz Peeps!
~T.

Mar. 28th, 2008

stress, over work...

Greetings Eastern University!!!

i made it here safely and in one piece hit only a little traffic and then got together and went out to dinner. Loving the people here and the campus is G-O-R-EGEOUS!!!!!!! 

Gotta go! Eastern Awaits!!

Mar. 11th, 2008

stress, over work...

Professor of the Permanent Marker

    Oh my god. My professor....is insane.....and...extremely jaded. -_____-.....so so so freakishly.....*mouth's open* i have no idea what word to use to describe this man's psychology....twisted...with a touch of sexual harassment....i think that's apt.

He just said something that I can't repeat, mostly bc i'm just trying to forget about it as quickly as possible.

and today as the saga of the permanent marker. Actually, this saga started *unbeknownst* to us, on Friday in class. Prof. T, wrote all over half of the board with a PERMANENT marker.  SO we get back to class today and ALL of our notes from Friday are STILL on the board. So we come in and i overhear one of the other students was talking about how he had a class in here and his professor was flipping out about the notes being in permanent marker.

So when Prof. T. comes in he's delighted that the notes are still there....until he tries to erase it.....then we tel him about the permanent marker and he just kinda shrugs it off and tries to place the blame on "modern technology"...i.e. a dry erase board and marker.....-___-...
so Then! he goes to write on the board with the SAME marker he was using on Friday *facepalm*...so a brave soul speaks up and tells him...and then he finally finds an actual dry erase marker and the class proceeds on as normally as possible...barring that CRAZY comment he made before....O.O....he's crazy! that's what it is! hahaha

O well!

Note to self:

FILL YOUR TANK ON THE WAY HOME OR YOUR CAR WILL STOP WORKING!!!!!

okay,, hopefully it'll sink in this time hahaha.

Tonight, i'm SUPPOSED to have a walk with al, but i'm not really gonna hold my breath, we haven't had one in two weeks, and he's been really busy lately. So...it won't surprise me if we can't today. I was a little dissapointed the last two weeks, but i'm just learning to step back and make myself scarce when he needs time. So yesterday, i wasn't upset at all. I missed him, but i wasn't upset....

It's just for the next two years. Then stuff should relax a bit *hopefully* i don't expect it to go back to the way it used to be...but i expect a maturer romantic sensibility. Not that we'll be less romantic...hopefully we'll be more so. Just something a little more grown up..more focused on the long term goals. It wll be great! Once we get there ^_^. I can wait as long as he needs me to.

*sigh* i should really pay more attention haha...so i'm gonna go.

laterz!
~T

Jan. 4th, 2008

no trespassing

*headache face*

today.....was poop. that's the short and the short of it. just...POO! that's it! 

Yesterday was pretty good...today....*see above*. 

Let me start with yesterday b4 i rant.

I had a pretty good day at work, made nice munnies. Had some time to chill, and relax a little, got to talk to the bf. ALSO, i was recorded yesterday (erm and into early this morning). I laid down vocal tracks down in my uncles recording studio (it's in his basement don't get excited) for the song my dad is working on with his band last night, so I'm GONNA BE ON THE CD *uber excited about this*. I may even get credited for it as something like "guest vocalist" or something....idk....*shouldn't hope for that*  But anyways, i was leery about it, b/c my last time in the recording studio was right after my surgery and it took FOREVER to lay down the stuff i had to do that time (easily 3 visits at roughly 3 or 4 hours a visit and i STILL wasn't too thrilled about the way it came out. chya, it was a nightmare). So i was scared when they asked me to come back and do more stuff. 

I had to play a role. I was a spirit, speaking to the damned....schweet. The song is based on Canto XXVI of Dante's Inferno. My dad is doing one canto, and it's a collaborative project, so there are 33 other bands taking each of the 34 Cantos from the book and writing songs to fit each one.  

So I was Beatrice, Dante's "angel" and i was speaking to the souls of the damned. Reminding them of the things they had disregarded in life. And...i was reminding them in Greek. Which wasn't too hard to do actually. I had four lines to sing, 3 were variations of the same notes, 1 was completely different. The intervals were the hardest thing tho, my dad loves complex note patterns so when he writes stuff, the notes and chords may be simple but the actual note intervals can be a pain to get down. But i did it and it sounded pretty good, when I heard the playback. 

yea but everything was laid down, synced and  perfect  in about 3 hours this time. We went in around 10:30  and got out from my uncle's around...1 am and as "payment" my dad took me to Dunkin Doughnuts and got me doughnuts and hot coco. yum!

And then...today happened.....

First off I slept late b/c i'd been up until around 2, and my phone was on silent so i missed al's call, which made me feel horrible. Then I sit down and i'm feeling sick and still aching from all the excercising i'd been doing. I remembered just as i was about to eat lunch that i needed to be at work extra early which pissed me off to no end, b/c the reason WHY i have to be there is so that the other waitress can make it to the gym.....to work out for an hour.....before she picks up her son from daycare......since WHEN does ANYONE ever do me THOSE kinds of favors....WTF? I mean, this is YOUR JOB. YOU applied for it and told ME that you'd be able to work THESE hours. now....you decide to go and workout and I have to accomodate YOUR schedule? I have a bad feeling. And y'know, I thought i'd be having Mondays and Tuesdays off....bull. Today she tells me that she made a doctor's appt. and that she can't change it, meaning... I'll be working ALL DAY tuesday...AND ALL DAY wednesday......that's two work your ass off shifts back to back...and one of them she PROMISED ME she'd be able to do it. I think she's full of it. 

The only good that's coming out of this is the money....if i survive long enough to get to pay day.

SO then, I start working and there is this old gentleman whom I really enjoy talking to. He's a really nice old man who has AWESOME stories and is just a great grandpa-ish sorta guy. But he talked to me straight through my break....for TWO HOURS! And that means i didn't get to call al at all and apologize. NOR did i get a chance to ask him if he wanted to hang out tonite, which made me feel more miserable. 

But anyway. It's pretty slow most of the night until around 6ish. And it picks up to a nice pace, not busy busy, but steady. We close at SEVEN IN THE EVENING!!!! Meaning, clean up is over, there are no more customers, no more food, no more nothing.....Nothing burns me up more than inconsiderate people. Well guess what....it's 5 minutes to seven and i'm taking care of a family figuring they're my last customers. I'm tired, cranky and hurt everywhere. A man and his wife walk in, look at me and say, "Are we too late? We know you close at seven we were just wondering if we could get a meal...."...well no freakin' duh. What was i gonna say, "GET OUT YOU SELFISH BASTARDS!!!!!!" No....b/c my jerk boss comes out, recognizes them and they ask him and HE LET"S THEM STAY!.....First off, it stands to reason that if you KNOW you're gonna be an ASSHOLE and show up somewhere five minutes before closing demanding a sit-down meal, it MAY just cross your mind that YOU SHOULDN"T GO IN THE FIRST PLACE! But no...these selfish pricks sat and nursed their freakin meals until they were growing cobwebs...chatting it up with other customers, just being ABSOLUTE JERKS.....and I hate them. Of COURSE they wanted coffee after their meal...it didn't come across to them at all that MAYBE they should GO HOME, since andy did them a favor and let them stay in the first place.....and it's not like I can go if it's time to close...no...I gotta stay. watching them WASTE my time and be selfish and rude and absolutely horrible customers.

But WAIT there's MORE! These people are still not gone and it's 7:30!!!!! I'm doing whatever i can to get all my clean up responsibilities done around them so that i can pretty much just leave as soon as get their freaking faces stuffed and leave. ANOTHER ASSHOLE COMES IN!

He sits down at the counter and looks at me guiltily ALREADY and goes, "So are you gonna be open for a while?" Before Andy could come out of the kitchen and "recognize" him i looked at the guy and said, "No sorry, we're in the process of closing right now. We usually close at 7. Please take a menu and have a good night."  He glances at the other people and goes, "Are you sure?" I looked at them and at him and said, "They're the boss's family. Goodnight." So he left, thank god....i was gonna strangle him with my apron strings. 

I went to call al, hopefully to hang out and talk a bit...and he's with the guys tonite getting his "guy time" quota in....it's not his fault....I was just kinda....wanting to talk b/c it felt like ages since we've had a good chat. But i'm glad he's with the guys. He needs his time to just veg out with the guys...unfortunately at the moment i can't do much...b/c most of my friends don't live near enough to me so that we can hang out and my highschool friends I have to get in touch with soon so that we can hang out. 

But yea, i came home and we had company....so i couldn't cry....or rant....or anything...except slink upstairs to my lair with some cold pizza and soda. 

So here i am....

This weekend should be pretty awesome. I got a call from KAZE of all people! I miss her like crazy and she gave me a call! I have to call her back! AND tomorrow nite, my mom and I are going to see the AMAZING MANDAZ perform with her acting troupe on pArk Ridge so it should be an awesome time.

Sunday will be really good too, my aunt is takin, Al, Megan, Julian and I into NYC to see the Grinch: The Musical  and then to a really awesome restaurant for dinner after the show. At the moment we're thinking maybe, Jekyll and Hyde's, The Singing Waiters Restaurant (idk the real name), Planet Hollywood, or Hard Rock Cafe and I am SOOOOOOOOOOO excited. *have to remember to bring my camera*

Well, i guess i'll go and get some writing done now that all the emotional turmoil is starting to die down...

Have a great nite!!!

~T