Memories By Inner Light

The New Deal

Tue, 16 Mar 2010 20:34:02 GMT

I'm sitting in American xperience....yesterday did not stay a good day....in fact it became one of the worst...

^wrote that about 6 hours ago...my streak has not improved as of yet...

I had a really rough day...i've explained it so many times to so many people i'd really rather not go into the details...needless to say i'm absolutely exhausted and i still have a buttload of hw to finish before tomorrow....

This week sucks...thus far...

Forecast:Lab Practical tomorrow mixed with Bio Quiz and ren/rev reading... likeliness of upwards turn in life not likely...*bracing for the storm*

going to dinner soon...early dinner makes me feel like i can get more accomplished tonight
i really hope so cause i'm starting to lose my marbles...

peace out..

Today is A Good Day!

Mon, 15 Mar 2010 18:56:24 GMT

So far, today's been alright *knocks suspiciously on wood*. My classes went fine, I was in and out of work super fast and to top it all off, I went in for advising and was very excited to find out that i only have about a year and a hlaf of school left here. On the one side I'm kinda sad about it, on the other, I'm happy because it means I can get on with the rest of my education and keep striving for more and more!

I have to get a 300 deposit in for my summer course very soon :( i should prolly do that tomorrow sometime :)

I'm very excited about everything i found out today to top it off it's just going to get better b/c my schedule seems to be finally working out the way I had hoped, the majority of my core classes are done, I just have to take about three or four more and two i'm taking next semester.:3 this is good news!

I've been feeling so grim lately, I guess today is a refreshing lovely feeling knowing that all the work I've been putting in has finally paid off! :) I'm very excited!

The Number 3

Mon, 15 Mar 2010 04:19:02 GMT

There's truth to the phrase 2's company and 3 is a crowd.More and more I'm discovering that i'm always on the butt end of 3. 3 and I have never gotten along. In fact I've come to hate the number 3. I mean, what has it done for me ever except make things socially awkward or made me feel left out or ignored, while 1 and 2 yak it up and I watch?

I mean everyone says, "gimme 2 secs" no one ever says, "gimme 3 secs" wanna know why? b/c 3 secs is one second on the side of uncomfortable, it's one part awkward, one part invisible, and one part you should have tried harder. I mean look at the olympics, there are 3 podiums, but no one ever cares about the guy who still is THIRD IN THE WORLD best athlete. We only care about joe blows 1 and 2.

From now on I am bringing a 4 with me wherever i go so that whenever 1 and 2 yak I have someone to yak with, when inside jokes are exchanged i have someone to exchange confused glances with i have someone to gang up with on 1 and 2 if we feel left out or not part of the group. When you're just a 3 you look like an asshole constantly interupting trying to fit into a conversation that was clearly built for two people. Holding a dissenting viewpoint when you're a 3 always makes you the "odd" (pun absolutely intended) number out. You have no support, and since you're ruining 1 and 2's fun you may as well pack up and leave b/c your relationship with either is not getting any better.

So, why is Slice picking up her pen to write about this right now? Because it's a re-occuring theme in my life. If it was just one "slice" of my life I probably would just suck it up and get over it, but suddenly it's EVERYWHERE...and it leaves me feeling like there's always something wrong with me. I mean, don't I have things that are valuable to contribute? don't I deserve to be heard? spoken with? respected? I mean when you have a 1 and 2 it's just so easy to pick on 3. With a 4 you usually have someone who's at least tolerant of you at the VERY least and most usually LIKES you enough to stick with you.

I mean, girls are clubby and catty and they like to form alliances, and just for once, I'd like 3 to not be the one who is picked on, ignored, or left feeling rejected and unimportant. I mean, is it really 3's fault? For once I would like to be more than a 3....i want to be me...i want to be able to discuss and say, "hey, I kinda wanna do this," or at least feel like somewhere in my life, i'm somebody's number 1...

Que the rain.

Fri, 12 Mar 2010 18:50:51 GMT

I knew the sun couldn't possibly last,still it's nice to have precipitation OTHER than the fluffy white stuff that must not be named.

Today is friday. I just took my bio exam it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought but then again it's in that gray area of "I don't know exactly how well i did but i think okay"

I'm desperate to try and fix up some of my older manuscripts and get back into writing for pleasure again. I have a meeting with Career counselors to talk about my future I'm curious and concerned a bit so hopefully this meeting will clear up some of my fears.

Gotta chill~
Peace!

The sun is out today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thu, 11 Mar 2010 19:22:28 GMT

This is a big deal! Sun! Actual sunshine!!!! Oh it makes me so happy!

Also because this day is just made of win I didn't go to my 8am class because frankly i couldn't wake up and felt really sick this morning, (so weird, my body makes no sense).

On the brighter side of today I have only one class, my work got cancelled, my latest class was cancelled and I have my favorite class at 12:30. Then I go to walmart to pick up some things. O! and i have to study for my bio exam tonight. But in general it's pretty awesomesauce.

SO I'm goin to career services today sometime before/after my one class. I want to speak with a career counselor and maybe have some suggestions made about what I can do with myself.

I'm pretty happy today, so i'm gonna go start doing something productive haha :D

Peace!

promises empty promises...

Tue, 09 Mar 2010 15:48:40 GMT

I always think things will change and I'm concerned with how often they remain the same. Words ring empty when the proof isn't there (maybe it never was).

I had a pretty bad night another night of the killer stomach virus I was suffering with all over my break and to top it all off i and an emotional breakdwon and even with all that i still finished all my reading for my homework...I thought....

I got into class today and realized the bibliography for my 12 page paper was due....thank god i had my computer. I spent the class researching and reading book excerpts online and reserving books on my online library list. I have to go pick them up very soon, maybe I'll pick them up thursday, I also found out that I may have to change my topic because there's nothing on 1930's film noir...which makes me sad, it would have been great....

O well, now i have to take notes for work so I gotta run...

Peace.

4:10am

Mon, 08 Mar 2010 09:13:49 GMT

I'm still awake....i see a dark and dreadful day growing unless i can get sleep soon :(

c'mon body, work with me here...

there and back again

Mon, 08 Mar 2010 06:43:49 GMT

It's safe to say that a lot of water has gone under my bridge since the last time I posted. I've been through alot and to be sitting here reasonably relaxed, posting right now kinda gives me a sense of satisfaction. I made it through January and February, both months I am very willing to forget for a long long time.

I feel like I'm at the end of a rather long arduously windy (that's wine-dee not wind-dee) tunnel.

I noticed something about myself that annoys me...i have a spacebar happy thumb, it always hits the silly thing much too quickly and i end up with something liket his (<-example) I've decided to fix this minor irritation by teaching my thumb to control itself.

I just got back to school from winter break, safe to say I need another vacation to fix this last one. i was sick for four days of it with a nasty stomach virus that permanently destroyed my love of pepperoni mozzarella sandwhiches and possibly Barnes and Noble's cafe food forever :(.

Housing for next year has been accomplished. It looks like a good group even though some are thinking of transferring out next year. On the one hand I want to be selfish and tell them how much I will miss them. On the other I realized how important it is to follow your own path and forge your destiny even if it takes you away from familiar friends and people you've grown attached to. I myself am a transfer. I know it's a hard decision, which is why I decided to be the better person and keep my peace. I don't need to make this anymore difficult for them.

I feel oddly alert for almost 2am...it must be the 36 hours of sleep i got while i was sick :).

I should rest soon...or at least set my alarm clock so I can wake up at all tomorrow :D woo!

well I'm glad i got this posted. It's been a while, i missed this.

Ciao!

The Saboteur is Moi

Thu, 31 Dec 2009 02:35:09 GMT

I am exceedingly amazed at my ability to dislodge myself from plans made and paths chosen. I fear it's some kinda creeping genetic disorder...I mean just now i told myself, i'm not going online i'm not going online i'm not going online and oh look! here i am...online...it old myself i was going to write and here i am..."writing" technically not exactly the way i'd planned but then again i really only have myself to blame don't i? oy...

I really need to start writing everyday, it's like situps the little gray cells get flabby if you don'te xcercise them, and I am my own worst critic so i have to be in peak literary condition if i want to be able to satisfy my own criteria and not get too discouraged...

I have to learn this valuable skills somehow...i wish i could just program it, but unfortunately im low on viritual memory....*sigh*

I guess it's time to break out the literary camo pants and army green tee and enlist myself in literary bootcamp, for the next two weeks i will write at least a paragraph everyday.

There I've said it, and since time is working against me I think i will get on that pronto!

Peace owwwt!

5am to 7am

Wed, 16 Dec 2009 18:06:08 GMT

thats how long i slept last night....

it was miserable...

on the bright side of this (if there is one) i look as crappy as i feel so generally people are giving me a wide berth to just kinda mosey where i please.

i guess i'm just a little frustrated now b/c i was trying to glue the shattered remnants of the situation back together and it just...wasn't sticking...

so i gracefully bowed out of the situation to go cry in a corner for a while untili regain my composure enough to continue...

I'll be studying for stats today, i hope this goes well b.c i need to do well on this final :(...i feel like I'll be okay but all the same i wanna do well. Maybe i'll do some practice problems now...hmmmms sounds good

peace out...

Exhaustion

Wed, 16 Dec 2009 08:33:06 GMT

have you ever been so emotionally spread out that you just wanna roll over wave the white flag and just go sit in a very dark self dug ditch for eternity? If you remove the extended metaphor and shorten the superfluous language...i'm in a really dark place right now...

i'm having thoughts i've never had before...moments of self doubt so pronounced and so deep i feel like i'll get lost in them...i feel like i am secure in nothing and that my very sense of self has been destroyed b/c everyone is clamoring around me telling me i've changed i've changed i've changed...i had a short glimmer of paradise, but now thats all been flickering like the illusion it was....

i feel like i'll never get out of this hole...b/c i'm not the only one digging it....nothing i do will fix anything...nothing i say will make this stop...nothing i say or feel matters....i'm just a negative...a waste of space....

i think that once finals are over i'll feel better,things have been so strained i haven't kept up with my silly documentation of my boring and mostly rocky life just far. Funnily enough it's not this new place that's making me miserable...it's all of the old things i tried to grow out of that keep pulling me down...i just wish i could wake up and realize i hadn't made so many mistakes, i hadn't totally fucked up so bad...

i haven't said this in a very long time... but i wish for just a few days, i could just dissapear....

um...hi

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 01:25:59 GMT

is it a bad thing that i haven't really posted all summer? can i make some excuses like "i've been ridculously busy" or maybe you are just happy to have me back? without a huge and probably unrepentant explanation for my abscence?

I'm sitting in my dorm (yes, my dorm), I'm at Mount St. Mary's U and it's my....third day here...and my roommate (yes my roommate as in i do have one) is across from me in her bed.

i'm kinda apprehensive about this whole process. i mean i'm happy, i'm relaxed (kinda) but am i too much of an old dog? do i even need to learn new tricks? people look at me funny haha, i guess i'm just too friendly but thats me in a nutshell. Either they'll get used to it or i'll find people who don't mind friendly.

it's wickedly hot here, but it's not as bad as it was saturday (that was awful...)

but the people seem friendly albiet a bit...hollow, i guess their putting on their desperate friend faces, which have a shelf life of about two weeks so i'll start seeing who these people really are within that amount of time. I'm doing my best to have no fakeness about me, i don't want to change and pretend for these people.I'm pretty happy and really don't need much else. in fact i'd like less of a number of things but for now i am content. i'm sure as the year goes on things will lighten up.

classes don't start until wednesday so i have some time to get used to everything here. I'm actually looking forward to the classes beginning. I'm not much for all this waiting business.

i miss al, and my MSU friends alot, but i feel that this is a good decision for me, and that it will help me grow. and please don't be a stranger i love having company :D

gawd

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 18:43:57 GMT

it's been a while hmmm, I'm thinking since i PAID for a subscription to LJ i should really stat to get my moneys worth (srsly T, what are you thinking ((T=me btw)) *end of useless inner monologue*)

I've been super super super super super busy! Ive tried hiding from my chores but they keep finding me haha. i also try to keep hiding from people but they seem to find me too, and tell me things like "LET'S HANG OUT" meanwhile my poor wallet mournfully loses thickness...haha but I got paid yesterday, and refused to cash my check all weekend so that i have max amount of moola for PROM NEXT WEEK! *squee* okay i'm good. I feel oddly calm about....everything, I guess i kicked the hectic rushing gremlin in the head somewhere along the line and if everything collapses around me, i'll still be sipping a virgin raspberry margarita determined to relax through it all. haha.

Tonight is an awards ceremony for my lil bro...NYAWH, so al and i are getting dressed up and going together, ( i begged him and he was so sweet and decided to save me! :D)

Then after the awards ceremony, we can't go to the reception (parents and lil bros only) so instead we'll be going to see UP (i love that movie) it's my third time through but i don't ever get tired of watching it haha, we also will be feeding ourselves so we've yet to decide exactly where we're gonna do that.

TOMORROW is the graduation of awesomeness for my lil bro, it's at Felician College and It'll be a long day but then we have dinner and THEN it'll be monday!!! which means....3 days till AWESOMENESS! Not counting little bursts of awesomeness inbtwn haha

I have to get ready now....toodle-looo

way to start my summer vacation....

Sat, 16 May 2009 07:46:10 GMT

i find it frustrating to be sick for the last two days of exams and then for the next THREE of my summer vacation...and now i'm having a really bad day and it's not even DAY technically...so far vacation sucks....majorly.

I feel rantage coming up but i'm going to quash it and opt for a less invigorating topic for 3:36 in the AM on Saturday morning.

exams went fine. The first of my grades has gotten back to me, it's an A. I'm happy but not surprised (i don't mean to sound snobbish here) but the class really wasn't that difficult.i'm more interested in my grades for Medical Terminology.

so i'm sick with an upper resp (and yes i did just abbrevatory that word)infection...dad asks me if i could make a choir rehersal, o.o....me....the girl who's wheezing for air to just talk normally, let alone walk around and move...-____- the face was enough to tell him to forggeddaboutit...

then i rested all day, started feeling better did some light excercise started feeling worse went downstairs felt better dad turned on A/C felt worse. Turned A/C to just fan after he left, felt better. Gave myself a calimari stomach ache, obviously felt worse. Al got hom early, felt better, argued with him...felt worse...and so here i am. Can't sleep. Don't wanna eat. feeling like crap.

i just really want to have a somewhat decent summer vacation...this is sad...i don't want to be depressed this summer i want to have fun...i can't always get what i want but i'm not asking for things
i'm asking for a bit of a circumstance.O and happy's always welcome to carpool with "fun" so i can have both. I'm just a little frazzled right now, so if i make no sense...it's the insomnia and my captive delta waves................................

*blink**blink* today is the best day eva!

Wed, 22 Apr 2009 14:42:55 GMT

okay so i woke up this morning and the sky is all dark and gloomy and sad. and i think "just a typical wednesday"

never have i been more wonderfully wrong :D

First off, I found 9 dollars gas money +1

Stop at the gas station the guys really nice and tells me to have a good day+1

All my favorite songs are playing on the radio +1

So i get to my class (on time even though i was running late +1)

Professor asks me to run to the library for him, because the dvd he brought wasnt working, class is delayed PLUS i get to go out and go to the library +2

I ask a girl from class to come along with me for fun and she says yes +1

We talk and she's very nice, and friendly +1

We get to the library and even though my professor wasn't sure if i was going to be able to get the dvd without him being there, i know the guy behind the desk and he gives me the dvd anyway, i check it out with my professors id with no problem +2

Come back to the room and am given some candy smarties by the professors adorable little daughter who is visiting our class today +1

Our dvd works better than the professors, but it still skips and doesn't play right so the professor cancels class and pushes our paper deadlines back until next friday +5

I sit in the lounge check my funds and find that i can afford 12month paid account on LJ which i then purchase as a treat for myself +1

leave the lounge with four minutes to spare, get to class on time +2

Set everything up and wait, class is delayed, professor doesn't show up on time +1

Department admin shows up and explains that the professor needed to take her daughter to the doctors this morning and won't be coming in, so instead the dept. admin says she's just going to hand back our quizzes/articles from the week before and give us this weeks quiz and then we're free to go +5

I get my quiz back from last week and am pleased with my grade +1

I get my article back from last week and am reminded that i've completeed all my article requirements for the course and do not have to worry about that anymore +1

Take the quiz, thought i'm a little shaky i think i did okay +1

take a little walk, and find four dollars in my pocket +4 (for each dollar :D)

Buy a delicious Special K bar and consume said tasty treat +1

Now i have literally 4 and 1/2 hours to work on my papers +4

Today.Is.Awesome. It may not STAY that way but for now i am stoked :D so enjoy my new icons!

Relaxed Sigh Friday!

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 01:16:25 GMT

I'm so happy that today is the beginning of the weekend!

I've been slogging through the entire week for this day. I got to see al for a bit which was awseome ( didnt have enough time with him but i NEVER have enough time with him) he's out with the guys now.

I should be working on my paper.

In fact I am working on my paper...just not making much headway...i have to think on it...

*toddles off to work*

frustrated

Thu, 16 Apr 2009 14:12:15 GMT

I'm just a little bit irritated today. Idk why I feel like just screaming. Maybe yesterday has got something to do with it. I really just want to go home and not deal with people today.

Chinese civ was snooze worthy this morning, Anthro we're watching another movie and yes, while i find it fascinating, it's still snooze worthy just because it's the last class i have to day. and then everyone around me (calluna, and miroku EXCLUDED) from this bunch) is just getting on my nerves. There's not a day goes by where I don't come under fire for one thing or another. No one is just cool with me lately.

my mom's hung up on the fact that i don't eat as much as i used to. Now i'm anorexic. She is convinced that if i can't eat the contents of the fridge in one sitting or i just don't feel the need to constantly stuff my face that now there's something wrong with me and that i'm skipping meals purposely to lose weight, idk how many times i've told her this, but i just don't eat when i'm not hungry....that's it. REALLY!

so first i'm constantly being told that i'm heavy and need to lose weight and then i'm anorexic? something doesn't make sense to me.

and then just...fighting, i'm tired of fighthing, i'm tired of the battles...

i want school to be over, i want summer to come.i slept for 16 straight hours last night...and still feel tired....its not even physical exhaustion its emotional strain, and mental exhaustion...

*sigh* at least by the end of this week i'll know where i'm going to school next semester.

in anthro watching about hinduism..peace out

The time has come to talk of many things

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 15:36:06 GMT

Sooooooo

i actually dont have much to say today. I was going for irony with the title to be honest.
I'm sitting in medical terminology and just barely scraping by with semiconsciousness... She's going over the words that are RIGHT IN THE BOOK....teach me something outside of the book, outside the box, just OUTSIDE OF SOMETHING THAT I CAN STUDY ON MY OWN...in the comfort of my lair.

*wishing I was curled up in my lair*

I have possibly THE WORST seat in the classroom today. I needed a plug to make sure my laptop would charge since the class is 2 1/2 hours and all i really want to do is sleep.

And then i have stuff this afternoon...i wouldn't mind going so much if i wasn't so exhausted, i feel like i don't participate well enough when i'm nodding off...it's not like i matter much there anyway, i generally end up being ignored. Which stinks like a baboons backside.

SO yea not thrilled today.

on the bright side there may be tacos tonight...which would balance out the rest of this mess.

it's just so blah today...gray sky, gray faces,everyone is dying on the outside, school is sucking us dry. I have put a mental block on the two papers that i need to write and they just really need to get done, so now i'm going to officialy put them ON A LIST!! Drum rooooolllll please!

1.) LIT ESSAY!
2.)CHINESE CIV ESSAY!

*yawns* oooo sudden bagel craving....

P.S. I'll be sending my deposits and paperwork to a school by the end of this week *sigh of relief*

P.P.S. GOT A TWITTER

P.P.P.S I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO WITH IT! XD

Ugh

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 12:46:50 GMT

so tired.....ZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz

Holy Saturday Musings

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 19:59:24 GMT

I've hurtled over the bulk of Holy Week with nary a scrape or a scratch. We're coming up on Easter (tomorrow) and I've noticed that the one thing about hurtling is that...it's exhausting....

BUT! I have started this masterful book called "The Anatomy of Story" by John Truby and it is...almost a religious experience for a writer like myself. It is so interesting and the points that he makes are so GOOD that i just wanna pour through the whole 400 pages AND write feverishly on my ideas at the same time...it's so hard to hold back /o.o\.. *writing headaches have been resurrected*....*writers block has been rolled away from the musty sarcophogous that is my imagination, and on the third try it has RISEN! REJOICE!*

*ahem* i'm getting a little carried away, at any rate, I love this book and even if you don't write you should read it to know what constitutes a good story and what is crap! So you won't go out and by non sensical nothingness that causes brain rot. :D demand high quality fiction people! I don't necessarily mean stuff like David Copperfield or even stuff like Lord of the Rings, i just mean GOOD stories. they don't all have to works of art, a stories main purpose is to entertain and give information. Try to find one that will really satisfy you!

And with that little sermon, I will toddle off to read some more when i should be paying attention to studying for Chinese Civ >.>.....hee hee

Too early Tuesday

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 11:57:16 GMT

I got up at 5:15...it has to be towards the end of the semester...i get up on time and somehow I still manage to leave uber late to get to school. -_____-

I just managed to get here in time literally with two minutes to spare. You already know how i feel about the shuttle system so if i say that it was mostly the stupid shuttle's fault you'll know what i mean. if not please look for my post on it, it's a few posts down or so haha.

Palm Sunday *gratefully* went without much of a hitch.

I'm exhausted though but i have rehearsals all week and then church thursday and friday. but technically I'll be AT the church Tuesday (today) Thursday early, Thursday Late, Friday, and then Sunday....*sigh* AND I'm going to have to go to my local parish to get the food blessed with mom maybe...or maybe we have rehearsal on Saturday too...eek...*is gonna diiie* AND i need to get to confessions....maybe today I can take Al with me this afternoon.

I'm super hungry.....

and bored...the prof is rambling for a bit and I'm trying to keep from nodding off...

i'm also cold...very cold....*sigh*

i wanna bagel or cup of noodles or something...i need fooooood! mom's making me lunch so i just gotta take care of brekkie on my own...i think cup o noodles is a good idea. yum!

It's supposed to rain again and i left my umbrella in my car....FAIL!

it's too cold for spring...i need another 70 degree day....

i'm complaining aren't i? i think i'm gonna stop. It is Holy Week after all, it's good to practice some humility and paitence.

Anyway notes time!

2 years 5 months<3

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 03:24:45 GMT

It's our anniversary today! Almost two and a half years! :D weee!

Now i have to finish the work i've been putting off. haha

yawns stretches blink blink Good morning!

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 11:48:56 GMT

It's 7:36...i swore that i would sleep in today. But this is my third and final attempt at rolling over and going back to sleep...FAIL...

Idk if i mentioned this but the bf got a job job. I'm pretty sure i did but then again, i was pretty sure that i put my shirt on properly this morning,and it was inside out and backwards....oy.... MOVING ON! Perhaps I didn't mention that the people there (his place of employment) were mean and nasty the first day of work. So much so that he was really upset about going back. But with some prayer and a little bit of luck, work for him yesterday went just fine :D which is good. YAY!

He's got work again tonight and possibly tomorrow.But if he's home as early as he was yesterday that would make me *squee* with happiness...and i never *squee*...without good reason anyway.

Tomorrow is Palm Sunday....O.O...i'm going to preface my next statement with this, I DO LIKE PALM SUNDAY! it's just a ceremonial and a musical nightmare for choir members. While we herd the people in the pews around like sheep, we have to remember all of the songs to sing during the procession and then we have to remember what the priest is gonna do and in the end when we've all passed out from singing for the equivalent of a two hour concert it'll be wonderful, for now, I'm just running over all the potential diastrous EPIC FAILS that can occur and it makes me want to hide under a rock until the procession and distribution of the Palms Ceremony is over....*meep*

O! so I finished the Anime Full Moon Wo Sagashite and i cried....and cried...and cried...wow, I loved that show haha I'll think about buying it when the time comes. First I NEED to get Full Metal Alchemist. Anyhoo, I have alot of cleaning to do in my room so I hafta make like a tree and leaf (hee hee I'm a dork)

Ciao!

scholarship ad, check it out, it's actually a really cool site

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 11:59:41 GMT

So yea. And if i refer people everyone wins so work your magic haha! And thanks to anyone who registers and checks it out :D

T Route and T Route Xpress

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 16:02:23 GMT

I know this has been in effect for a while, but honestly...what is up with the shuttle system. Why is the T route...and the T Route Express DIFFERENT? And why does only the T ROUTE EXPRESS go to the train side of the transit deck???? Is the other side a mere 50 feet from the opposite entrance just not Transit-y enough for the parking and shuttle commission? Frankly, i feel that it is a stupid waste of time...honestly...the system was working beautifully before, why change that? Aren't there more important things to be wasting brain power on...for example...FINDING WAYS TO NOT MAKE PARKING SO FRIGGIN EXPENSIVE? hmmm...just a thought.

*sigh* *shakes head*

O! and what is up with the early morning shuttles? Why is it that they're all marked as "A Route" "T Route" "E All Campus Local" but they ALL ARE E CAMPUS LOCALS!?!?!?! srsly...except for the A routes which pisses me off frankly. The A routes, and A expresses all just whiz on by us poor Transit Commuters and head off to the Village to pick up people who LIVE ON CAMPUS....then they just...ignore us on the way back...while we stand there for a half hour waiting for a fake T or a real E to finally show up.

And then there's that fake 15 minute rule. I timed the shuttle this morning...it took a half hour to get to me..at 6:30am...when there was no traffic....anywhere...wanna know why? because some genius (and i use that word with liberal globs of sarcasm) in the shuttle commission thought that it would be a good idea to have the E NOT STOP AT THE STUDENT CENTER FIRST!...it just boggles the mind. 9.9 out of 10 times....no one gets off OR on in front of Red Hawk Deck. besides...it's the Red hawk Deck! ITS RIGHT SMACK DAB IN THE MIDDLE OF THE CAMPUS!!! You can't GET much more ON CAMPUS than that It takes FOREVER for us to walk from the NJ Transit Deck to the MAIN CAMPUS let alone a hall where we may have class while pretty much ANY walk ANYWHERE from the red hawk deck is AT MOST 10 minutes....does anyone else agree that the stupidity evident in our shuttle commission is castration worthy?

Ah, well..i've ranted for today, it was a long time coming but now that i can stand back and see the verbal carnage I feel a bit more at ease.

Now i have to learn music for palm sunday....*oy*....dads cranky *oy oy*...i miss al....*just falls over defeated*

Later peeps!